Your goal is good, your passion and enthusiam evident. Your problem remains that you fail to take any personal responsibility for your dreadful lack of interpersonal/communication skills.
Rather than being defensive, blaming others, or running away, take a good hard look at what you've accomplished, or failed to accomplish here, compare that to your goals, and when you see the enormous disparity, figure out how you could have handled things to better achieve your own goals.
It's a difficult lesson, but one no truly successful person ever manages to do without. Self-awareness and the ability to change your own behavior to achieve the results you want is the key to success in anything.
Best of luck,