Ever think "WTF am I doing here?"

I figure this is a normal part of getting older, hopefully, and not a sign that I've driven "halfway across the country IN THE WRONG DIRECTION!", but do you guys, especially the older guys with families and stuff ever feel like you're in a movie about someone else and just waiting for the director to yell "Cut!"? Do you ever find yourself in social situations and think "Who the hell are all these people, are these my friends now?" Wake up next to your wife and think "Why hasn't she gone home yet?"

Life is pretty weird sometimes, dudes.

Definetly socialish situations, GFs friends are staying at our house this weekend. Married couple, wife is pregnant, they have a toddler and 120lb dog with them. Dude is a stay at home dad both borderline hippy...feels like I'm in the fkn twilight zone Phone Post 3.0

I'm with ya man. Life is so odd. Phone Post 3.0

And you may ask yourself
How do I work this?
And you may ask yourself
Where is that large automobile?
And you may tell yourself
This is not my beautiful house!
And you may tell yourself
This is not my beautiful wife!
Letting the days go by/let the water hold me down
Letting the days go by/water flowing underground
Into the blue again/after the money's gone
Once in a lifetime/water flowing underground. Phone Post 3.0

Daily Phone Post 3.0

Ive just turned 35 and im questioning everything, i have 2 autistic sons and my wife i now realise that our time on this earth is short and i would love to make a big impact in my family's life or anybody else i can reach out too. I just want to make the most of mine and my familys life and try help and better the lives of anbody i can. We are all just the same simple organism going through this shit called life so if we can make it better for other people then we are doing a great thing. Phone Post 3.0

Every day.

I ask myself that question every day. Then I remember that I have no idea what I'm doing with my life. Then I remember I don't care. Then I smoke two bowls. Phone Post 3.0

There is definitely some good to it, I'm not literally waking up wondering where I am like I used to do, but I still haven't completely adjusted to this new person I've become either

OriginalTUFer - I think I've pickled my mind.

I would love for someone to have a Come to Jesus moment with me, tell me I'm a child who needs to cut the shit, and tell me to grow up. Phone Post 3.0


Ouch. I feel that.

I was going to say, David Byrne has thought this at least once.

Has it ever gotten this bad?

 

http://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/depersonalization-derealization-disorder/basics/definition/con-20033401

 

Depersonalization-derealization disorder

 

Depersonalization-derealization disorder occurs when you persistently or repeatedly have the feeling that you're observing yourself from outside your body or you have a sense that things around you aren't real, or both. Feelings of depersonalization and derealization can be very disturbing and may feel like you're living in a dream.

Many people have a passing experience of depersonalization or derealization at some point. But when these feelings keep occurring or never completely go away, it's considered depersonalization-derealization disorder. This disorder is more common in people who've had traumatic experiences.

Depersonalization-derealization disorder can be severe and may interfere with relationships, work and other daily activities. The main treatment for depersonalization-derealization disorder is talk therapy (psychotherapy), although sometimes medications also are used.

I use to train fighters, now I coach 4-6 year old girls tee ball.

I've fought dozens of times in nearly as many states, now I play in a slow pitch softball league.

I used to get up before the sun to do my roadwork, now it's because the baby is crying.

And I know you can't be young forever, I guess I just never prepared myself for getting old.

Hello darkness my old friend... Phone Post 3.0

OriginalTUFer - I think I've pickled my mind.

I would love for someone to have a Come to Jesus moment with me, tell me I'm a child who needs to cut the shit, and tell me to grow up. Phone Post 3.0

I can put you in contact with my pal, his name is Shiloh

In college once my hooter's waitress invited me to a party at her house after she got off work. I asked if I could bring a friend, she said sure.

So we got to the party and when we walked in it was like a scene from a movie. Everyone went silent and turned to stare at what were now the only two white guys in the whole place.

We hung out long enough to drink a beer and then dipped out. Phone Post 3.0

Crush Crawfish - I use to train fighters, now I coach 4-6 year old girls tee ball.

I've fought dozens of times in nearly as many states, now I play in a slow pitch softball league.

I used to get up before the sun to do my roadwork, now it's because the baby is crying.

And I know you can't be young forever, I guess I just never prepared myself for getting old.
That last line though.. Phone Post 3.0

I did, about 6 years ago. Since then I've worked my ass off to get as far away from that feeling and question as I possibly could. Thankfully, my hard work has not been without reward. But I have definitely been there. It's a steep mountain to climb out of that shit, but it's doable. Phone Post 3.0

Shinsplint - 
Crush Crawfish - I use to train fighters, now I coach 4-6 year old girls tee ball.

I've fought dozens of times in nearly as many states, now I play in a slow pitch softball league.

I used to get up before the sun to do my roadwork, now it's because the baby is crying.

And I know you can't be young forever, I guess I just never prepared myself for getting old.
That last line though.. Phone Post 3.0

That's really it in a nutshell though. It's not that I'm looking back wishing I'd done more when I had the chance, I had a lot of fun and got to do some pretty cool stuff, I just never really thought about the next phase in my life. You go on a date with a girl, you get along alright, so you go out with her again, and then you're married with children and you haven't been to the gym in months and it somehow happened so gradually you didn't notice but so quickly you couldn't fully adjust.

Crush Crawfish -
Shinsplint - 
Crush Crawfish - I use to train fighters, now I coach 4-6 year old girls tee ball.

I've fought dozens of times in nearly as many states, now I play in a slow pitch softball league.

I used to get up before the sun to do my roadwork, now it's because the baby is crying.

And I know you can't be young forever, I guess I just never prepared myself for getting old.
That last line though.. Phone Post 3.0

That's really it in a nutshell though. It's not that I'm looking back wishing I'd done more when I had the chance, I had a lot of fun and got to do some pretty cool stuff, I just never really thought about the next phase in my life. You go on a date with a girl, you get along alright, so you go out with her again, and then you're married with children and you haven't been to the gym in months and it somehow happened so gradually you didn't notice but so quickly you couldn't fully adjust.
Yeah man, for myself i went to university, graduated, went back to my construction job to pay off my loans and suddenly 14 years passed. Phone Post 3.0