Had to say it...

 I posted my thoughts on Mask's passing on another thread and I've had to many people saying that I needed to say it on my own thread...



I have had a hard time with the passing of Chuck. We were all very close. We were Crew for about 7 years and I ended up leaving because of some business differences. Now in the wake of what happened I realize how much it all means nothing in the big picture. 



If you knew anything about Chuck and I, you knew how freaking stubborn we are when it come to certain things. So when we were at the same shows or around neither of us could step up and say what we really felt. I said bad things to Chuck and Dan. As I cry writing this I told Dan I was sorry for acting and treating him the way I did. It TEARS me apart that I could not tell Chuck this. Scrape and I have always checked in on each other and have been friends since the split.



I did go to the scene of the accident to leave a note to Chuck. I simply put...



"I'm  sorry Chuck" signed your old friend Joker





I do miss the times we would hang together and fuck around. Punkass, You never passed my guard haha

Good post.

 Sometimes you just have to let things go.It`s hard to do,but huge props for the nice gesture Mike.

Good Post Joker hopefully you and the rest of the guys can come together and put the past behind you guys and realize lifes to short to be mad at eachother.

Good stuff Joker.

When tragedies happen they put things in perspective for everyone.

 Thanks guys... I have so much love for everyone out their

TTThanks for sharing, sir.

All class man. We sometimes forget how impermanent life is and how petty some of the things we do are. When someone you know dies, you get a big reminder slap right across the soul.

My first intro to TapOut was through you, Joker. It was at one of the UFCs at Mohegan Sun (been to too many to remember which). You guys were chilling out at the autograph table when some kid and his mom were disappointed when they found out what they thought was the end of the line was only a break in the middle.

Anyway to make a long story short, you didn't want the kid to walk away disappointed, so you said to them "Hey don't go! You can get an autograph from UFC fighter Kevin Randleman." LOL....my profile pic explains why that is funny.

RIP Charles.

Joker - You've always been an amazing person. I hope you can come to peace with yourself. Im sure Chuck would see the arguements as petty in retrospect too.. Sure what happened with Chuch was tragic, but it doesnt change the principals that you stood on. This post in itself is proof of the the class act you are. You and my bro FLO will always have the most respect out of the entire Tapout crew. God Bless!

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great post joker

Well said.  Much respect to you for realizing what you needed to say and do in order to make things right in your heart.

I'm sure that Mask would respect that as much as the rest of us.

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Props to Joker! RIP Charles you will be missed bro!

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Thank you for the beautiful post.

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I agree with all, class act all the way Joker, I almost feel like crying right here in the middle of an airport from reading your post. And even though there are so many rivalries and bad blood between this guy or that guy.... when you take a step back we realize that we are all a part of mma in one way or another, fighter, fan, coach etc.... I

ts kinda like that brother thing, I used to fight with my brothers all the time, sometimes would be so fucking mad that I wanted to rip his head off, tell him I hate him... but if someone else were to fuck with him, watch out because I'm gonna kick your ass


RIP Mask.

The Joker -  
 It TEARS me apart that I could not tell Chuck this.

I'm sure he is listening.

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RIP