Honestly the fear of getting hurt or losing, or any of that doesn't scare me that much. The biggest thing has to be the pressure from a coach. Not just to win for the school, but there is a certain bond there and I HATE the awkwardness after losing (with a coach). It's hard for me to look someone in the eye. Even if the coach is super cool, it's still the same.
Of course with competition, losing is inevitable. I'm not trying to argue some irrational cause, but the awkwardness for me is really bad. I am starting to go compete without telling anyone. With friends, I don't mind, but it's just a really weird feeling with me and a coach.
Anyone else like this?
I hate the adrenaline dump...it really screws with me.
Sometimes expectation can be a bit too much. But other times, we blow that expectation out of proportions by overthinking it.
People will make their own judgements about your performance - and that's something you can't control.
You'll have to deal with winning and loosing by learning from it (learn your weakness as far as technique, and then learn 'how to compete' and get used to it), but don't hide away to compete. It's a public event anyway - you might as well have some support.
Pressure is good, and will force you to do better. But, if your coach is making you feel this way, it's not your problem, it's his.
Who's your instructor?
-Charles
If you train as hard as you possibly can for a competition your coach should be proud win or lose. You improve with every competition. The more you compete the less pressure you feel but there will always be nerves involved. The thing I hate the worst about competing that imo makes everything suck is the waiting.
Last year I competed in the Copa do Mundial in Sao Paulo and the Mundial in Rio in back to back weeks. The Copa was terrible and I ended up waiting in a stadium for 12 hours then getting no warm up time before I walked out on the mat. Several of my friends who were going to compete in the heavyweight purplebelt div didnt end up competing until 2 am. On the other hand, the Mundial was the best tourney ever. Toughest competition, but I knew who I was matched against, what time I was competing, and what mat I was going on three days before the event. I showed up in Tijuca 45 minutes before I stepped on the mat and had an awesome experience getting to the fourth round.(whereas, I lost my first match in Sao Paulo) Organization can really effect the competitiors performance but theres nothing you can really do about it.
I have the same problem hollywood. I fear disappointing my school and my coach more than anything eventhough my coash is totally cool.
The long wait for your match to be called