This isn’t about being depressed or suicidal. Just demoralized. Been looking for a job for the last 6 months, just found out that a position that I had 12 rounds of interviews for got eliminated.
I lost a dream job at a startup because the board eliminated my position after I raised $20MM dollars. But with that came a new board and new strategic priorities. I don’t fault them, but it sucks being congratulated for doing good work but the better you do the faster you’re out the door.
Had an offer out of state early on but wife and O didn’t want to uproot the kids and wife had a good job. After I said no, and they filled it with someone else, she gets laid off. Still, we don’t want to move the kids so I don’t totally think it was the wrong decision.
The job hunt is long and frustrating. Today I yelled at one of my kids over her being a kid. Stupid shit that probably deserved a scolding but not yelling. So I’m a piece of shit for that too.
Chronic injuries mean I can’t really work out. I’m 60lbs too heavy. Doing PT but the out of pocket is high enough that I just feel guilty
I know drinking isn’t the answer, and neither is diving face First into bowl of icecream. That’s why I’m 60lbs too heavy.
I feel like a bitch for complaining when people have real problems too. But I guess I’m a bitch on top of everything else.
Cant sleep either.
I know in my head that this will pass. But there are days when you can’t help feeling how you feel. So what do you guys do when there’s little you can do about a situation in the short term, you feel down and like an asshole and you’re unfit to be around anyone you care about?