Do you meditate? get drunk? what do you do?
Because I think I'm gonna be sick.
Won like 50 from a freeroll last month. Built it up to 1100. Just yesterday, I had all signs pointing to me not to play, mainly I was just not into it. And I lost it all.
I can't believe it. I went against every rule I put forth against me. Started off with a badbeat, tilt, badbeat,tilt, risk whole stack on unfamiliar playing field...
I'm mainly upset now because I won't have a backup for buying christmas presents. It was that vision that kept me going. Now my mind is just really drained.
You know what really upsets me? I had up to 600 on another site before this incident same story.
I guess I should have learned my lesson. I'm a fool.
I won't be playing for awhile, but for sure this is going to have an impact on the way that I study. It will leave me more time to hit the books, but this loss in particular, will have serious implications to my mind...for now