Tony, I posted this on the Training Enhancement forum and Sonnon gave me an answer but reccommended I post here. So here's how it went: Sonnon, I was hoping you get help me with a problem. Recently, I ran for a bus and missed it. Normally this doesn't affect me, however I was late for prayer already and the next bus doesn't come for half and hour. Well, since then, I have been unable to run more than 10m! I always flash back to not being able to make that bus. I don't know what to do! I need to run. The weird part is I feel mentally exhausted after a few meters of sprinting but know I am not physically tired. Can you help? MS
MS, you already know the solution to your problem, even by the title of your message. From the sound of it, you had some major guilt for missing that bus, because of the sacred nature of your destination, I presume. It sounds like you are still carrying that guilt. There's an old story about two monks who were walking by the river when they came upon a woman who needed to cross but was afraid to do so. The older monk swept up the attractive young girl and carried her across. He set her down, with her thanks and they parted ways. The younger monk whispered to him, "how can you carry that woman across the river? It is forbidden to touch women." The older monk replied, "I set her down back there. Why do you still carry her?" Things happen my friend. The first thing you have to realize is that you need to let the event go. Don't "carry" it anymore. Training, like life, is about now, not yesterday. What you do in the past matters little to nothing. What you do NOW means EVERYTHING, for it is the bridge you build to tomorrow. The second thing you need to do is go outside now... Visualize the event that happened, missing the bus. Feel the guilt that you carry as a result of missing that bus. Rewind the memory to right before you miss the bus. Now, let the memory play out again but instead of the negative outcome, splice in your imagination, and play out the memory with the ending you wanted to happen - catching the bus, and making it to pray. Feel what you feel when you do this right; how happy you feel, proud, relieved. FEEL those sensations, and then say outloud, "Yes" and smile, and... run. Now go run that distance. Feel that exhiliration coursing through you. And if you encounter that negative visualization again, as you are running repeat the above process until you have successfully played out in your head again the positive outcome. Tell yourself aloud, "yes" - inhale and expand your thoracic cavity, and smile or grin or smirk at having conquered that demon doubt-canibal. frat., ss.